september: 28: 1998    :    monday
 

I had the scariest dream in the world last night. I don't even know why it was so scary, but when I woke up I couldn't move. I can't describe what happened in my dream, but yeah. I couldn't move. I was hot, but I couldn't remove some covers. I wanted a drink of water, but there was no way I was walking to the bathroom or getting out of bed. It freaked me out completely and wow. I can never tell anyone what happened in that dream. But it wasn't at all like a scary dream. Maybe it was a little. The end of it was me running inside my house and locking all the doors so I'd be safe. That dream.. wow.

Alison is worrying about me, I think. But I have no way to make things real, so I have no way of dealing with it yet. I will, Alison.. Really.

"when i say goobye to you, i'll be alone"


pause


"still there?"

Wow.. this girl I know, everything she said to me for awhile just sounded like poetry, in a way. It was beautiful, but I sort of started to miss her meaning because i would be thinking about writing.

I have a feeling that when I start to miss someone after just a day or two.. I have a feeling that means something.

Say that you love me.
Just say that you need me.

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