I don't know what I got myself into with this calculus class, but wow is it hard. Like, when I am in class I understand everything and I'm with it.. but the homework kills me. I flat out don't know how to do a bunch of the problems.

So I guess this is where I say it. But I don't want anyone thinking I am bumming too much. I'm doing alright. I am really okay. My grandmother died Saturday night, I found out this morning. The family decided to do it. I guess they pulled the plug on her ventilator. She's been on it for as long as I can remember. And you know what, you can say "i'm sorry about your grandma" but try not to push it, cause I am not looking for that right now. Just be my friend and I'll be fine.

Starting around 3 pm on Friday and going until about 1 or 2 pm today, I had such a good time that I wasn't ready for today to hit me with homework and the reality of school. People that make me smile are wonderful and school stops me from seeing them.

I don't know what to do about some people and my life, but days just keep slipping by. A day later, a week, and then a month.

My transcript is all fucked up and I am pissed about it. The school system switched to a dumb new program and all the class names are screwed. I don't need this as I am trying to get college applications out.

"kate who" is up