I had a one person techno geek rave today. Alison came and kept me company. She's a nice girl. I only did one of the things i wanted to. but oh well for that. I was at school way too long today. I left at about 9:20.. at night.

Everything this year is just full of sadness and 'last times' and it isn't cool. I miss ben when i am at school a lot. Ben is a really cool guy and school is lame.

An admissions guy from Columbia came to Community today. That was neat. But it's also all too real. Where my life is heading is somewhere that is not here. And none of you will be there to share it with me. Most likely.

My forum had a bake sale tonight. We actually made a lot of money. The Tuzinsky forum is the best, yo!

I got paid today. That makes my bill situation a lot better. Yeah. I like that getting paid thing, it's cool.

My mom is in minnesota. She's going to lose it. I really should go visit her.. but i do not want to be in a hospital and i do not want to look at my grandma while she dies. I'd like to keep the memories I have of her in a happy state. The last time I saw her was bad enough.. and I've got enough other stress factors right now. People ask me if I am close with my grandma, and I guess the answer is no... but still.. she's my grandma and we're down. She's a fighter, I'm telling you.