I have been trying to balance my life lately, unconsciously. I am doing math, but I am doing creative writing. I am all about computers and technology, but I am working to help the natural ecology of the area.

In a year, we'll be gone. Most of us. The people that mean the most to me will be scattered. Some will be in michigan, I'll be wherever.. New York maybe. I don't think I'm staying here, even though I can't imagine leaving most days. How could I live in new york or san diego? Everywhere I would go is so far from home. And I'll be alone. But I guess that's how life goes.

If I knew how, I'd dance like ben whenever he danced.

My mom might come home on Monday night.. unless something happens before then. I don't know which is the better option. My brother keeps stopping by. When I see him I think he's just trying to check on me, cause I told his girlfriend how lonely I was, but I bet he's just checking in on his mail and what's going on.

Alison wants to take pictures of me. We walked my dog instead. We didn't pick up any one with my puppy.

I want something else to get me through this.