Last night was.. well, interesting. Rex's party (that wasn't really rex's, but it was at the house he lives at) was definately interesting. I don't know about it, but I guess I had fun in the end.

I dressed up as ben for the party. His clothes are really comfortable. If it wasn't his style, maybe I'd dress like him more often.

I feel better now that I've talked with brenna. It's okay if we just talk every now and then, because now I know that if I wanted to or thought I needed to, I could say hello to her.

Today I collected some seeds for restoration ecology and then I took claire home before she fell asleep right there. At home we decided not to do the leaves because our blower was not working. I slept all afternoon.. I was out cold for a few hours. All in all, it turned out to be an okay day when my mom came home with pizza.

It is driving me mad that we are not as we use to be, even though I don't know what we use to be - but it worked. I can't imagine not seeing you for another week, maybe two. I can't imagine not being a part of your life. It seems that we're both changing and I don't know if we can stand the changes, but I'll try for my life. I need you, too.

I saw a side of you and of me last night that I didn't know before, but it scared me just a bit that we could be so off.