People were all dressed up at school today. I don't know why, but halloween seems like a silly thing to me. I am not into it.

Last halloween was the best. I saw U2 at the palace with chris and ben. It was awesome. Chris was such a great friend and so fun. I hope he's happy and having fun lately.

Rex Roof is a great guy. He is really nice and really fun to be around.

It's hard to take praise from unfamiliar sources sometimes. Like when my counselor at school tells me I am wonderful in everyway, it's not expected. But I like having all my teachers think I am great. I try to be, so it's all good.

I get email at night asking if I am still awake, from unusual people.

If we worked then things wouldn't still be like they are, but I realized that things being like they are is real and we can't stray from the truth.

I have been dreaming of someone lately. Someone I cannot identify, but I feel within my bones. In my dreams, I can feel something so real, so strong that it stays with me for days. A feeling. A body. A smile so right. I wish I knew who it was I was dreaming of, but I can never place them, I just know it was love I felt in my dreams.. a love as great as my dreams haunts me.