I have a cat. a cat that loves to sleep on my lap. on my stomach really. he keeps me warm, though. and i am learning to type around him. whenever he finds me sitting in my room using my powerbook he jumps right up and gets comfy. he is such a sweety. and that is all.

today I talked to claire for about a hour and a half for no reason. it was great. really great. I am glad that we can talk and be friends now, those years back then when we couldn't.. that was no fun at all. In fact, it was bad. A very bad time in my life in general. Bad. B A D. But yeah, claire is cool.

I tried to fill out some applications today. wow, that is crazy. and i have to do it to get in to college. to continue learning for a living. I can't wait until it's over and I have just picked a school to go to.

Becca has two fish that she keeps in her dorm room. Their names are sawhore and prozac. I don't know how I will survive without my cat and my dog. It will be weird and lonely, and fish could never make up for it.

I miss graham and I even miss ben, who's been gone for a day, not even. I feel lonely this weekend, but not that much. I've been talking to people, doing stuff. I don't know. I guess I just feel out of touch with a few people and with myself.

my fingers automatically call to you even when you are nowhere to be found. without thought the patterns are made within two seconds.