I am talking to brenna. Right now, at this moment. Online, of course. But I can't do anything else and I don't know what to say and what not to say. I can't tell you how I was talking to Alison about how I am the mac. I'm not, but I like to pretend sometimes. And I just told you anyway. That was good.. talking to you.. about everything I thought I couldn't mention. I missed your friendship like mad some days.

Was it wrong of me not to warn her? I knew it was going to happen and yet I said nothing. And all her belongings fell out of her bag all over the floor. Oh well.

"Plants are cooler than people cause if your arm got cut off, you wouldn't grow a new person."

People are scared of me.. or intimidated by me. I wish they weren't and I don't know why they are. I'm trying not to be scary. I am ripping down my boundries.

"Nice shoes, Kate."
"I get that a lot.."
"No.. really. Nice shoes."
"..oh.."    eyebrow

Now that I've mailed my application to Columbia, I feel wonderful and free.. sort of.

I wish I understood people. I wish when someone liked you, you'd know and be sure, cause I am not always. I wish when someone wanted to get to know you better, they'd just ask you to hang out with them in a comfortable environment. I wish when I wanted to learn more about someone, I'd just ask them to hang out with me. I wish there were more of those random low-key parties that happen sometimes with all sorts of different people just having fun. I wish.