"don't ruin the moment."

"the x moment or the y moment?"

Life is pretty interesting. The way it keeps repeating. Day after day, week after week, a pattern never ending that you barely notice. How long was it since I slept until I was done but not too long? The last time I sat outside and watched the stars with some friends was... when? When did I last drive a hour with no plans but to see someone? Time keeps going at incredible speeds and every day is lost in it.

I have been just hanging out around school enjoying people still, but not in the same ways. It's more like I have nothing else to do, or it feels forced somehow, instead of just walking by and finding some people to sit and talk with for a bit. It feels like I am trying too hard or maybe everyone else just stopped.

A friend of mine just saw this site and apparently, I am a "stud muffin."

I don't know what I am going to do tomorrow night, so give me a ring if you want to do something. That was sort of a joke, but I really don't have plans and everyone seems to be busy. Maybe I'll sleep all weekend. That is what I feel like doing right now, but I've got things to get done before monday.

I want to play basketball in the cold. I do that. I don't know why.

I was thinking today about how you said you'll love me forever. I was wondering how long forever was. Not because I didn't believe you, but because I didn't believe life could be like that. I hope forever is a long time.