I finally saw the usual suspects tonight. with eva. it was good. very good. I knew early on who it was, but for a little bit I thought it was someone else.. then I was right in the end. i saw it with eva, did you hear? good.

so I had this great plan for this cool little thing to send form letter type email to emily wishing her a happy birthday, but i can't get it to work right. i am sad. oh well. Today is Emily's birthday, please take the correct measures to wish her a happy birthday. I know today is over. Do it tomorrow. Give her a gift to make up for the delay. I don't know.

You know how when you see a movie with someone that you don't see all that often or really with anyone it becomes something to share and so you have to have little jokes about it even if the movie was just lame or the movie has nothing to do with how you and this person relate? oh.. you don't. well, me either. nevermind. but yeah. it is something to think about for the future.. maybe.. just a little bit.

some days i will say anything. anything sweet. anything i shouldn't say. anything i might not mean or anything i do mean but am not ready to admit. anything nice to make someone okay. my mood changes and i can't say why. but i am all about being nice these days. so please be happy.

maybe it's a chemical imbalance, cause i feel off center. it comes around every now and then. and I can't help the way that i feel. and I can't name it.