It's a cold walk, let me tell you. Actually, just imagine it for yourself. Two times a day just to learn.

So there is a really cheap fare to new york this weekend. I'd be gone from saturday to monday night. I really should go, because I need to visit Columbia and make sure it will be all good. But I really shouldn't go, because I have a ton of math work to do. I've got a midterm on wednesday, so there is the normal intense homework to do plus super intense review work. Wow. I don't know what to do. I keep going back and forth about it.

How will I know I don't have bronchitis anymore? It could be quite awhile until it's all cleared up. hmmm.. damn.

No, I can't imagine living any farther away from you than I already do. It's way too far now, how could we add another 600 miles? I'd much rather live in the same town, but I know that's not going to happen, unless something big changes that neither of us knows is coming.

I wish life could go back to when I worried about learning to drive and calling my parents for a ride home on weekends. Those problems were much more simple, looking back.. but besides the whole future and decisions for it, I'd much rather be living here and now.

I don't feel lonely quite as much these days. But I still do. I have a nugget of hope. And I can make it through the night a majority of the nights in a week.

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