It's getting so cold outside.

"she doesn't talk when she doesn't need to ... i want to fill the space she leaves"

Everyone goes through that stage in high school where you don't get along with your friends, your group. It's rough, but it can teach you a lesson.. about being dependent and how to find new people so you don't overdo it with just a few. You need a lot of people that you can talk to when you're walking down the hall before class and bored. People that will make you smile in a hallway of chaos.

I think friendships should be about quality, but also quantity with a lesser amount of quality.

Ben wants to go to Joe's Crab Shack yum yum.

What? College? Oh... I don't really know.

  fear of rejection. fear of missing. fear of a void. fear of wanting to see you more than I am   "suppose" to or allowed. fear of scaring you away.   rejection. the fear. the idea that you'll answer no. the idea that i can't offer you an insight. fear of being vulnerable..   or of not being vulnerable.

I am going to walpole island on friday. What fun it will be.

I don't know what I can do to find balance in my life.. there must be some way to make things clear, like a nugget could be.